Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Don't Push Me

So here's the thing. I don't like to be shoved around. It drives me insane when someone thinks they have the right to bully me and make me follow their whims. Some people believe that their place in life gives them the authority to force their will on others. Being the stubborn person that I am, I have a problem with this. I get a really bad attitude when someone bosses me around.

Funny, I thought this kind of thing ended after elementary school. You remember? The kids that made you eat their gross pudding just to watch you cringe...The ones that told you to sit still while they whipped you with a metal object, just because.

Nowadays bullies have different objectives. They make you do the exact same thing twice because the first time wasn't good enough. They make sure you have to work twice as hard to do something so that it takes double the amount of time. That kind of thing.

Why?

Who knows...

My problem? My response. I do not react well to this kind of treatment. I get angry and hissy and throw a mini fit. I'm not saying what they are doing is right, but neither is my response. But what am I supposed to do? Honestly, I have no idea. I'm not really that good at fixing my behavior. I sometimes have good ideas, but I don't always follow through like I should. Leviticus 19:18 tells me not to hold a grudge. The question is, how? I need to learn self control. God gave me a spirit of self control (2 Timothy 1:7), not a spirit of crabbiness. 

Matthew 5:11 says that we will be blessed when we are persecuted. So every time someone pushes me around, they're really doing me a favor. They're storing up treasures for me in Heaven. So long as I respond appropriately, that is. I'm learning to take the negativity swirling around in my head and transform it into something positive. It's not easy, but I'm trying. And I've got some great women standing by my side the whole way to keep me on track.

That's the key to developing any new behavior. It's having someone to watch you stumble and pick you up when you fall. To have some trustworthy Christ-followers to keep you accountable in your desire to change.

I don't have any really profound advice, this is it for now. I'll let you know if I discover anything brilliant in my daily struggle.

Always,

Jaci