Sunday, September 7, 2014

Finding Meaning

I used to be THAT person. The one that people sought out when they had questions or something that needed to be taken care of. I was the organized one, the reliable one, the knowledgeable one. Somewhere along the way, unbeknownst to me, that all disappeared. In the blink of an eye, with no warning, the things that made me feel important and necessary vanished. I'm in a place in my life where I feel forgotten, unnecessary, useless. The people that used to seek me out for advice or support have moved on. I'm wallowing in worthlessness. Ever feel that way?

I mean, it's not true. I'm not useless. I just feel that way because I'm a weak human and I put too much stock into the respect and love of other humans. God has a plan for my life (Jeremiah 29:11). Even if I'm not necessarily being used to my full potential at this moment, He is preparing me for the future He has in store for me. He'll take care of me (Luke 12:28). He wants me to flourish, but He knows what experiences I need to go through in order to truly understand His Will. He cherishes me and loves me, more than any human ever could. I matter to Him, so much. It doesn't matter to Him if I have all of the answers, what matters is my heart. As long as my heart is for Him, who can stand in my way?

I may be going through a slow season, but when God decides it is my time to shine, the only person that can stand in my way...is myself. I need to trust that His Ways are better than my own, and that the moments of heartache are opening me up for the opportunities He has in store for my future. Wherever this path might take me. He'll be with me, guiding me...so what do I have to fear? (Psalm 23).

And besides, everything is going to change in 3 weeks anyway. Hoofta. Marriage. Those blogs could get interesting ;-P

Always,

Jaci